Fate? God?

I think they're cruel. Yes, I do. You see, I'm an incoming 3rd year student. And my adviser/homeroom teacher was supposed to be my English teacher from last year. So when I found out, I was quite happy. WE were happy. Well, that's what she said. I can't read her mind, of course. Anyway, everything was PERFECT. Suddenly, the menopausal head teacher decided to shuffle the teachers again. So instead of having her as my adviser, we got our Religion teacher. But hey! It's cool! Our Religion teacher and I get along really, really well...but I wouldn't choose her over my English teacher. And I just feel bad about it.

I thought God was being unfair to me. But then, if I got what I wanted, wouldn't that be unfair to the other people? The people from the other section who also wanted her to be their adviser? I mean, I can't always get what I want, right? It's like, a lotto. I mean, everyone prays but only one wins the prize. *sigh* I guess I just hate the fact that she WAS SUPPOSED to be my adviser... You know... It's like... You're given a good life and when you're happy with it, they take it away from you. I hate that. I wish she was never supposed to be my adviser in the first place. Or I wish I didn't know.

It's just SO UNFAIR, you know? Fate gave me what I've been wanting to have just to have it snatched back. I want to cry. I pray for this every night. But why won't God answer my prayers? Is it too much to ask for? If it is, then why was she supposed to be our adviser? It's just so unfair. I want to know why fate is doing this to me...